Up and down~

I decided to start using this thing again ^^ Mainly because I wanna keep up and RP with Tweekle-toes again <3

So yeah! I don't expect to use this for much more than random RP's and commenting about but there. I'm BACK.

<3?

I wish could listen better, you know?

I have this bad habit of assuming the way I am and how I think about everything is the way everyone else is and that's a really bad way to think when you consider how messed up I am... I mean, I don't do it in bad ways, just I'm sure I piss people off by going on and on about stuff that doesn't bother them in the slightest 'cos it does me and I want to be sure they have support should they need it, you know?

Life is hard not just sometimes, but MOST of the time. It's full of death, disease, discrimination and a million other things that are unfair for no other reason than simply 'because' and... I'm a fool to think I can control enough of my own little world to make all that go away for those I love, I suppose.

An idealistic fool.

I think about all this way too much when I get too long to do so. I shouldn't, because it's all beyond my control really and I do know that it's just... MAYBE I could have made this better for that person or WHAT IF I could have given this person just a little more of my time and things could have been different~

I complain that people wanting answers all the time for everything that happens is what's wrong with the world. I moan that people should have more faith and simply believe and be happy without knowing the how's and why's of it all because I can't help thinking what we might find will take all the beauty that's left out of living and yet...

I suppose some answers might be good - how hypocritical~

Heh! God, sometimes I wish my head had an off switch, you know?

I just want people to be happy. That's all I've ever wanted.

Okay so I finished ’Baten Kaitos Origins’ over the weekend – be prepared for some long-ass rambling~

( Spoilers and opinons~ )

I get to start a new game now, which is both fun and not since I have like... A MILLION to choose between @_@ I’m thinking either ‘Breath of fire – dragon’s quarter’, ‘Eternal quest’ or ‘Dirge of Cerberus’~ Man, how’s a girl to decide such a thing?!


IN OTHER NEWS, this is very important -> http://www.penny-arcade.com/comic/2004/10/4/

XDD! MAN! I love those games...

Lar sick.

Alana here safe and sound.

Video game pissing annoying.

Cheese cake accomplished.

That is all.

Could, but not gonna - too lazy and sick. Mostly the lazy thing, though.

I've got a condition right now, a kind of viral THING that apparently can hang around for weeks on end, which means I suffer from horrible migraines and tention/stress headaches pretty much every minute I'm awake (right now? I feel like someone's tickling my brain XD ) and so, I'm having to limit my computer time which means little to no writing for a while and no long chats - I'm sorry. Meh, it sucks. You try having a headache for four days non-stop @_@

I stopped taking my anti-depressents. Long story and I'm not getting into it so don't bother asking, just know that I have and the doctor said it was cool and I feel fine (aside from the viral THING) so it's not a big deal. Just... You know, I have.

I wanna write but my sister's making me watch Big Brother and my notebook's all the way upstairs, I had REAL coffee for the first time in weeks and feel REALLY sick right now and also? I update too much. I know, I'm unbelievably bored since I can't do much of anything that involves having my eyes open for more than an hour at a time. Bah!

Maybe if I bend a coat-hanger in just the right way, I could stick it up my nose and scratch my brain...

PS; The sexy, blonde, gay, incest icons makes me smile. So pretty~!

Okay so today? Not fun. I’m not a religious person, but I DO like the idea of Sunday as the day of rest.

Ha! Fat chance!

( My so-called day of rest. )

And now? I’m gonna go try and fit eating my dinner, washing up and getting a bath all in an hour.

;_;

( Before~ )

( After~ )

In other news; I have a bug that makes me REALLY hot and then throw up everywhere. Epic stuff.
I cannot stop playing the sims - it's kinda amusing how lately my sims have more of a life than I do XD;
Nick no-longer has a second shut-down, he'll be working it on full pay and life is shiny and full of MONEY for a change.
The curries website taunts me and will NOT let me order a new coffee pot ;_;

I just pulled what I THOUGHT was paint off of my finger only to find that it was, in fact, skin. Ouch.

THAT'S RIGHT PEOPLE! The papering got finished yesterday and so I have been painting the kitchen all morning. It's SO much more like hard work than I remember it being when I was a kid though - I am about to drop dead from exhaustion! After just two hours, too! I'm such a weak little waif of a human being, huh? ^_^; I'd like to say it's looking good (which I guess it is, really...) but I kept getting vetoed over the colour so instead of being some form of bright yellow like I wanted? It's 'daffodil white'. And by that, I mean almost the same colour as the rest of this damn, magnolia filled house *sulk*

When I own my own place? Every room is gonna be a different colour. And BRIGHT. And if Nick complains? He can sleep in the shed.

Ummm, other news... It's all kinda dull, really~ I have a list of South Park requests to finish along with the next two drabbles on the list (I've not posted any of those in way too long - fail!) and then I need to look into my digimon ones, since I know I have lots of those, as well... I hope I can remember how to write digimon @_@ I'll cry otherwise!

Oh yeah, and I'm tired.

That is all.

Because I’ve wanted to do one of these for AGES!

( Music meme thing~ )

And today is one of those days~

A horrible, horrible HORRIBLE day. Puncutated by Nick's boss's saying they need a second shut-down because they didn't sell enough during the one that just finished and they can't afford to pay anyone for this. Me having done ALL my adult, contacting benefit people to tell them he was working now BEFORE he called and told me so I had to go back and undo it all again. Depression, omg, WHY?! *stabs things* and Nick has just this second broken the glass jug for my coffee pot - joy -_-

No money, no happy, no coffee. Just kill me now, kthxs.

I am gonna go read horror stories in bed now while eating warm, chewy chocolate biscuits and have a serious think about whether getting up tomorrow is a good idea.

Thank you ALL for that ♥

Alana texted me earlier to ask how our epic decorating of the kitchen was going - how about some photos to answer that question, hmmm?

( That can NOT be good... )

Yeah... >_> Needless to say, we have to wait for the landlord to come and take a look Monday or Tuesday before we can do anymore, which means we won't get it done before Nick starts work again - boo! But what can you do? One good thing about being as aptheic as I have been lately is I really don't care too much about anything, really - wheee~ XD;

In gaming news (Because I'm sure you're all really excited about that...) I KILLED THE MIGHTY GAWD! Hell yez! XDD Trust me, that's a big deal and I am so proud of myself~! Very little else will matter for at least the rest of the day, I'm guessing! So I'm easily pleased - it's probably a good thing? >_>

Have a good weekend, everyone! ♥

Because I'm as fed up with moaning as much as I'm sure you're fed up with listening to me moan? Have some video game news~

( Baten Kaitos Origins - Nearly over ;_; )

Next on my gaming list if Breath of fire four - I tried it once before but could NOT get into the weird battle system... So many people have raved about the game though, I really wanna try it again ^_^ If not, I have ALL the Suikoden games and paper Mario which Kim lent me still to play plus Pokémon XD and the first Phoenix Wright game as well @_@ (I have way more than that, I just can't be bothered to get up and look up the names >_>)

FUN TIMES AHEAD!

I feel like you're phasing me out, like you don't want me in your life anymore. I wonder if it's true or if you do still think about me from time to time...? I hope you're alright <3

EDIT; I am now a CHAMPION! And it's gone 4am forever. I should sleep, huh? ^_^;;

Urg. Life hates me and you know what? I hate it right back!

( cut for swearing and whining~ )

The internet issue is solved. We have a new, wireless modem now and a TV package with Virgin Media which has only cost a small amount extra a month than we were already paying for just broadband. Yes, we got screwed, i think *amused* But Nick’s happy so I’m happy!

Just a very quick update from my cell to say my internet connection is pretty much dead. I need a new modem, apparently and I have no idea when I'll be getting one since I've got Alana coming tomorrow until Friday and then Adri's here Saturday until Wednesday.

So yes, I won't be about although I can check my emails via email with like two buttons on my cell at no charge so if you need me? (and don't mind REALLY short replies...) Feel free to drop me a message ^_^

LarlarUlysses@googlemail.com

Have fun until next time, guys! <3

Urk. Doctors. Very soon. Bah. Was really sick yesterday, so I can talk about that, at least. GOD! I HATE my doctor in a nice sorta way *sigh*

My cat was sitting in the middle of the front lawn HOWLING at 8am for no reason AT ALL. Well, we think he could hear us talking and got freaked out 'cos he couldn't actually SEE us. Seriously, is EVERYTHING that enters this house gonna end up going crazy?!

Life is so tiring sometimes.

NICK GOT HIS JOB!

Yup! XD He's on a three week shut-down which means we're gonna go do lots of fun stuff like fishing and boat trips and stuff and then he starts back on August 18th! Happy times~! Not just because he's working now, but it means no more dealing with benefits and doctors notes and all that CRAP for me too - HOORAY! *sooooo happy~*

In other news; Today has been SO COOL. Thunderstorm weather, man! LOVIN' IT!

*happyhappyhappy~* <3

Today has been a rare good day, so I figured I really should update here, just because all I seem to do os whine and bitch lately - you MUST all be sick to death of that by now, right?!

Anyways, it's bee a hot, sunny day down on the south coast on England, not a single cloud in the sky, in fact - just beautiful. It's hard to be depressed on such a glorious day, and so? We decided to have a BBQ! Yesh! Lots of charcoled covered, meaty goodness! XD My parents came over and so did Nick's and we just basically ATE for three hours. It was EPIC. Even Marmie was happy 'cos mum caved to his 'I'm so cute and so hungry - why would you not share with me? WHY?!' and got himself some fresh salmon ^_^;; He has expensive tastes~ After that, Nick's mum and dad wanted to go to see the lake, so we went for a walk and lookit! MORE pictures XD

( Behold! Said pictures~ )

So yes! Today has been pretty good Although, I didn't get up until 2pm after sleeping for fourteen hours - opps? so REALLY, I guess it was only half a day. Still! better than nothing, right?! XD;

Things Baten Kaitos Origins has taught me today

1 - I WANT A WOODFELLAH, DAMMIT! That thing is too cute <3

2 - Goats think they're cats. But they aren't. They are GOATS. WHY WOULD THEY HAVE A MOVE CALLED 'Ubur cat kick'?!

3 - Zombie pirates with no legs like to dance around their booty~ Man! That was the only thing that's made me smile all day XDD

4 - If a spider and a chicken ever got together? They have, like, the ugliest offspring EVER. *shudder*

5 - Ven is too chubby to fly *cuddles him*

6 - I need more than sixty cards in my deck, for cryin' out loud!

7 - I HATE ZAURAK KEEP. I dunno why, I just DO.

Today I am rather depressed. I also finally got my new cell phone and already I hate the damn thing. I did get a 4GB memory card for it FREE though, so I have taken to calling it my MP3 player instead. This pleases me.

Man, if I don't stop eating these crisps soon? I'm gonna turn into a GIANT bacon flavour maize, rice and soya snack and then Nick will EAT ME.

I know this, and yet I cannot stop~